It's a poor sort of memory that only works backwards.

This is yet, gonna be another wordy post.

So exams are over and life is great. NOT! Sighs. Life's gonna go back to what it was before. Homework, netball, lessons and more lessons! This is the last day I'm gonna enjoy using my lappy and feel bored. Seriously, I don't know what's worse, being bored or busy? I guess bored. At least when you're busy, you don't get all paranoid and make up ridiculous stuff. Hmm... yeah. Maybe I should occupy myself with more things so that I won't come up with ridiculous thoughts about my vague future.

Talking about my future. Anyone ever thought about your own? Well I have been thinking of it a long time ago and... idk. I'm starting to doubt myself now. As hard as I try to be optimistic about it, everything seems like it's pushing me to the edge. I know that in order to get to the top, I have to climb the slopes no matter how steep it is. That's why I'm gonna work hard. I'm gonna work my ass off and get to the top. I should not be scared to fall back to the ground because I can always climb back up again. And it's only after I fall, then I can enjoy the taste of success.

Yes Codie. That's right. Fuck yea right. :)